Are there any stories in your life that you're tired of telling yourself and others? What stories would you like to tell instead? I know for years I've been a people pleaser and always thought I wasn't good enough unless I got people to like me and what I do for them. Alot of people have reinforced this with most of the friendships and relationships I've had being the one who always gives too much. I don't really understand it properly but I've always been shown from a young age that I need to do certain things in life just to make people happy even if I've not wanted to do it. So when I've tried to put up boundaries or trued to look after myself I got grief or classed as a shitty friend but now I realise I don't have too and I don't have to let my body in such states to please everyone else. After losing my son early this year I took a step from everyone to see who cared and alot of them did stuff that I never thought they would and that hurt more, I thought I had people to help me through a difficult time and they weren't there, it was nothing new but I had hope in these people. So I knew I had to change and now I set myself boundaries to protect myself. I'm starting to look back on stuff I've done and reflecting on the fact that I've done more than most have done and that it makes me more worthy than them and that I don't need people like that in my life. I wanna be know as the person who climbed many bridges and never gave up for what I wanted out of life, I am amazing, strong and resilent. Consider a time in your life where you feel you have given your personal power away? Now rewrite that story and inst3ad include details of how you handled it with assertiveness and demanded that your boundaries would be upheld? OK so I'm gonna talk about my abusive relationship and how I overcame it. When your first in a relationship you want to make them happy etc so I know it was stupid now but I let some of my boundaries and thoughts go on a few things that I didn't want because I wanted to feel loved because most of my life j just wanted to feel safe. So after a few years and trying to help this said person get to a point where I thought he might be happy. Anyway I got to that point and this person still wasn't happy so I pushed myself further and further over the years till I got to the point where all that went through my head was how the fuck do I get out of this now because I knew if I pulled back I knew he couldn't look after himself. So over the years I stayed thinking he would change eventually. This didn't happen at all and after I had a breakdown I realised I couldn't do it anymore but then I was still stuck because I was put in a situation where I had to look after my 2 children while having said persons brother living with it also. So I sacrificed my safe space in order to help someone again so once I had early help involved again I thought things might change. It still didn't so when his brother left I decided I was gonna start doing things i enjoyed to improve my own mental health and make me stronger to help the next person, what I found was I knew I was better than this and knew I didn't deserve any of this and wanted to leave my relationship no matter what and I never looked back. Since then I've been finding myself ever since trying different things to see what worked for me and now I'm in such a great place and starting a job soon and still progressing in life whatever life throws at me. I feel its just gonna back me stronger. Do you feel ashamed about anything in your life or past? If so, how is that affecting your life now? In what ways do you shame others? OK recently I have openly spoke about a few things I did in my previous relationship that I feel guilty about and how i thought it was the only option I had, so since then because I was so riddled with guilt and ashamed of myself I have changed it all around. I have done multiple parenting courses and research on abuse etc and I will never ever do that again. And because of me trying so hard I don't see why others can't do the same as me so I try put them in the right direction. I try not to be brutal but sometimes I feel it comes out because I sometimes still feel like I'm not a good enough parent because of other situations I've been in and because I still have that negative mindset about how I parent and constantly need that reassurance hence why I'm still pushing myself that hard to prove I am. I've been in a few difficult situations where I want people to tell me the truth and I'm right back there again taking what they say negatively when sometimes I think about it after and realise all they want is to help me. Sometimes it seems hard but it's getting it into a routine for me, I know I write alot of stuff down that's really important but when I'm overwhelmed I find it hard to do the small things but I'll get there eventually. It's a working progress but that doesn't make me a bad mother infact i do everything I can to keep t